no no
sorry
please continue
i can't imagine the unfathomable pain you went through
when your poor fish died today
although every day i get out of bed
hopefully
go to class
hopefully
pay attention
hopefully
make it back to my room unscathed
hopefully

let me start over
depression
anxiety
panic disorder
OCD
all things I deal with every day
my brain doesn't trust me
let alone you
i can't hear you over the sound
of the alarm in my brain
saying there is something out of place
something not right
something that could kill me

clench
breath in
release
breath out
clench
breath in
release
breath out
keep going
they're almost gone

age old techniques
that almost never work
i'll deal though
it's okay
please continue
i just need to leave
very soon

so sorry
i really must go
but i hope you feel better
and maybe we can talk again later